Leah Shepard Photography|Through The Looking Glass: Adventures in A Beautiful Field Of Wildflowers...

Leah Shepard Photography|Through The Looking Glass: Adventures in A Beautiful Field Of Wildflowers...

I did It! I made a photography blog post! Wow, I must just be on fire right now or something..! (Not literally - for anyone who may be wondering. )

Tell me what you think! Feedback is good for photographers and artists like myself :)

PEACE!!

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Take me as I am.

So take me as I am

This may mean

You'll have to be a stronger man

Rest assured that

When I start to make you nervous

And I'm going to extremes

Tomorrow I will change

And today won't mean a thing

Sometimes music is the easiest way to express exactly how I am feeling without getting too wordy or rambly or argumentative or bitchy or frustrated at myself and others... There is a soundtrack that consistently plays in my head throughout the ups and downs and in betweens of my life.  It plays in the background of my brain, behind all of the millions of other thoughts and ideas and feelings and memories and worries and lists of shit I should do but I'm not -

Complete with an array of self deprecating thoughts that I tell myself in response to being so fucking frustrated that I never get shit done and how I really suck at life sometimes.. 

So this is how I feel right now - in simple terms - that doesnt involve me talking or arguing or whatever. 

If i suddenly lost the ability to talk, i wonder if you'd start to miss my ADHD filled ramblings in time.  Or would you just rejoice inside your head daily that the universe gifted you a wonderful blessing by somehow making me a Mute who is incapable of verbal expression - and in effect, unable to talk during shows.. When you are playing your game of the moment...basically All of the things that ultimately trump focusing on me and what I am trying to communicate 100% of the time.  

I understand I am ridiculous and that I can be frustrating and obnoxious as shit . I annoy the hell out of myself multiple times a day, everyday.  I understand.  But you can be the same way with some things too, you know.  Neither of is perfect, we don't have to argue about who is right and who is wrong about the most trivial fucking things ever! I keep trying to communicate this and it just isn't working.  I learn to deal with your annoying tendancies, and you do the same!! Simple. Deal with it. 

See bolded portion of lyrics at the beginning of this post is there to get the main idea/point of all of this. I am me, you want me? You have to have all of me. I'm not a submissive little girl who is willing to become someone she isn't as suppress who she is just because it would make it easier.  I shouldn't feel ashamed to be my complete self with you - all me faults and weaknesses along with all my endearing qualities and strengths.  I am fucking awesome god dammit.  Make me feel that way sometimes. 

 

http://youtu.be/_ivt_N2Zcts

I hate the world today

You're so good to me

I know but I can't change

Tried to tell you

But you look at me like maybe

I'm an angel underneath

Innocent and sweet

Yesterday I cried

Must have been relieved to see

The softer side

I can understand how you'd be so confused

I don't envy you

I'm a little bit of everything

All rolled into one

[Chorus:]

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover

I'm a child, I'm a mother

I'm a sinner, I'm a saint

I do not feel ashamed

I'm your hell, I'm your dream

I'm nothing in between

You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am

This may mean

You'll have to be a stronger man

Rest assured that

When I start to make you nervous

And I'm going to extremes

Tomorrow I will change

And today won't mean a thing

[Chorus]

Just when you think, you got me figured out

The season's already changing

I think it's cool, you do what you do

And don't try to save me

[Chorus]

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease

I'm a goddess on my knees

When you hurt, when you suffer

I'm your angel undercover

I've been numb, I'm revived

Can't say I'm not alive

You know I wouldn't want it any other way

http://youtu.be/_ivt_N2Zcts