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"you may say im a dreamer... But im not thrme only one." : A Mission Statement Manifesto ( if you are human, please read )


Watching Forrest Gump and feel compelled to express that this movie is great. The underlying message is inspiring. Forrest Gump wasn't stupid at all, if anything his character is one that is fundamentally and purely a savant like genius-unbiased and Raw-able to find profound meaning and beauty and appreciation in every life experience. Totally untainted by the corrupt, unjust, racist/sexist/everything that ends in "ist" basically, irrational, self serving, cruel and harsh society which surrounds him. It may be a diff time and diff generation than that which is reflected upon in the movie, but times really haven't changed all that much if you think about it and have in many ways devolved to a totally ridiculous and frustrating level. I mean really. Wtf!? History f-ing repeats itself. Always has and always will until the day that earthlings FINALLY realize that maybe shit really does need to change dramatically in the way we think/behave/perceive/react/handle any type of conflict that could arise basically. Maybe it will take some kind of global threat like an alien invasion or asteroid or whatever for that to truly happen...For everyone that lives on this planet and breathes the same air to realize that we are all by far and unequivocally more alike then we will ever be different, regardless of any superficial and trivial thing like color of skin, religion, social standing, gender, language, how much money someone has or doesn't have, etc. That shit just doesn't matter when it comes down to it. History has been taught as having always been something that repeats itself. But it doesn't have to be that way. That doesn't have to continue ... It will if everyone just sits back and accepts it as something that just "is the way it is" and that theres nothing that one single person can do to change that. Well, to anyone who has that attitude towards anything... I call BULLSHIT. How the F does anyone know what is or is not possible ???? If they claim that something is impossible just because that's how it is then they need to be debriefed and un-brainwashed ASAP. Seriously. A society is like one big giant cult. Snap out of it people. Open your eyes and minds and hearts and truly see the vast amount of possibility that is out there. All it takes is effort. Time. Empathy... How is it that I know all of these things and am able to see the bullshit everywhere and express passionately about it like I am right now .. And still not be taken seriously at all really. Will anyone read this? Not holding my breath. Will anyone have any response/comment/contribution to any of this? History of my life has conditioned me to expect that no one will, because that is what I have been repeatedly shown anytime I bust out the activist in me. Silence. Ambivalence. Finding myself discouraged by a painful state of completely not ever being truly acknowledged at all and an utterly frustrating sense of invisibility, that no matter what I say or do or how much effort and energy I put into something - it doesn't even seem to matter at all. Well despite all of that, I refuse to just give up and shut my face and look pretty. F that BS. I won't give up. Maybe one of these ranting sessions will actually be read and/or taken to heart someday. Maybe one of these times all that I have to say will ignite the dormant fire and spirit of revolutionary proportion that I believe resides within us all. Maybe not. The point is, it's not impossible at all and I refuse to prescribe to the notion that 1 person can't make a profound difference towards living long enough to see the day where the whole worlds population lives in peace.. Where everything is better.. Fair... And that it is appreciated for being that way... achieving that which benefits all and not only a few will always yield more and more and more of all of these so called utopian ideas I apparently have. You may say I'm a dreamer... But dammit, I know that I definitely CAN NOT be the only one. Dreamers unite!! show yourselves, come together, prove to me that you exist! Please!! Dont be afraid, that's exactly how the "evil" powers that control us all want us to be. Come out from under your rocks and the darkness and soak up the light. Who's with me? Anyone? Is what I am saying at least valid and thought provoking? Prove to me that I am in fact not invisible or alone in these thoughts and feelings I have just spilled right out of my brain for all to see. Just like a photograph, in order for the meaning of anything to be ultimately exposed and appreciated, it must first be SEEN by just one EYE and then be documented on film, which must then be harvested in complete darkness, developed with love and care, and then finally be exposed in all it's glory by pure and untainted Light!! How's that for an analogy!?! :o) whether you disagree or agree with anything I have said in this little rant of mine, make your opinion known! Unlike the major social institutions currently in place, I will not judge or ridicule anyone who disagrees with me and welcome any kind of challenge or debate among differing viewpoints with an open mind, heart, and arms :o)


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Look, That Hula Hoop Is Nicking!

Yeah, I'm that lazy right now.. Can't copy and paste on iPhone app so .. Here's something EVEN BETTER!



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kiag3AGfDAw&feature=youtube_gdata_player

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Location:Estabrook Park, Milwaukee, Wisconsin

This is what happens when doors are angrily and unnecessarily slammed

La Luna Hotel - worst hotel as well as the most creatively misrepresented as being a million times better then it turned out to be in person - already paid for in advance and non refundable, of course. Sigh...

Live and learn.. Live and learn :) do not stay at the la luna inn on Lombard in the marina district of San Francisco please, unless you want your trip to include it's very own version of the scene I share with you below. Lol!



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Location:San Francisco, California, United States

Some befores and the afters of some shots of some trees :o)

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Spirals are everywhere around us in nature if you stop to look and see.. Its amazing really... So much so that it is my favorite thing to see and then document photographically, as you soon will see.

1. Original raw and unedited photo taken with my iPhone 4, believe it or not ;)


2. Extreme Being bored-ness overtakes me while agonizingly making my way through the day. A little photo manipulation and being an artsy little fart is often the top choice of mine to focus on and increase the speed of time as it passes... Perceptively at least :)



3. final state (for now) of grungification? Check!



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Family resemblance surfaces again between me and a long lost cousin who aside from being long lost l also might be just a little bit famous... Ha! Found this while googling "Leah Shepard blog" in hoPes of finding an old blog site of mine that I can't remember my login name and pw to for the life of me! Or even where and what site i would go to try to accomplish the goal which should be simple: recollection of and the restoring the absent knowledge i so strongly wish to seek, a battle that may very well end in defeat.. seemingly futile at this juncture... BUT..

I did find the random link to this Site though, and find it eerily familiar and a great description and reflection of exactly the way me and my love need to work on solidifying .. Haha :) I may have never actually met Dax, but do share the same family line as him along with so many more Shepard's who I am sure still remain so unknown to me! My branch of the shepard family tree is pretty much non existent now for me due to death or this totally angry buy justifiable intolerance for them that now permanently resides within me. Sad, I know, but unfortunately true. I can't believe I managed to still develop into the emotionally stable/responsible/caring/loving/passionate/peaceful/well rounded and well not a nutcase with a case of the crazies! It is refreshing to constantly see a lot of similar attributes and commonality, personality speaking that is, with family that now fills up the nothing that was once a huge question mark surrounded by blank space - one of the main unsolved mystery type themes that haunt me in life.

Nothing.. I say nothing shall stand in my way of properly documenting and sharing about this moment of feeling in tune and some kind of genetically cosmic familiarity of the same kind and way of thinking and behaving and overall stressing of the importance of healthy communication in relationships, a kind that sustains and nourishes the happiness within as it grows and grows and grows larger full of love and a pair of positive spirits :) ... Nothing! Not the 20 bagillion million distractions taunting and testing my strength to focus completely on finishing this blog post of a novel so I can get back to my hunt to locate the site/blog
That i mentioned somewhere above in the probably overwhelming string of the unedited and raw cluttered words that I have used in great numbers in an attempt to represent the very profound and complex deep thoughts which occur to me to me. Holy ramblification, batman! Ugh, perhaps yet another FAIL by me really.


Here is one of
The keys that one would need to unlock a deeper level
Of understanding me and what I come from and how it relates to who i am as a person and who I have come to be... Still traveling down my path that hopefully leads to only love and brightness, relatively smooth and bumpless for me and my Mikey - the love of my life and true soul mate who I feel so lucky to have finally found and merged paths with. Life is good, and the smile on mu face is real and cinstantly fresh with the renewal true happiness.

Does any of what I wrote just now make sense or is it too jumbled and mashed together with no order or symmetry or.. Punctuation!! Haha sorry .... ADHD brain here. You wouldnt believe how quickly it thinks and shifts focus as I make connections between everything - exposing the thread which binds it all together in the huge great big giant scheme of things.
We shall see I suppose, when I re read this almost lyrical prose of mine tomorrow when it's not 2:04 am and I Should be sleeping instead of publishing my thoughts for all to see - in one long and ridiculous run on sentence brought to you personally and direct from my head and onto this blog by me.

Done. God dammit. Now I am done. Blahh..

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Location:Glendale, Wisconsin ,United States

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