Family resemblance surfaces again between me and a long lost cousin who aside from being long lost l also might be just a little bit famous... Ha! Found this while googling "Leah Shepard blog" in hoPes of finding an old blog site of mine that I can't remember my login name and pw to for the life of me! Or even where and what site i would go to try to accomplish the goal which should be simple: recollection of and the restoring the absent knowledge i so strongly wish to seek, a battle that may very well end in defeat.. seemingly futile at this juncture... BUT..

I did find the random link to this Site though, and find it eerily familiar and a great description and reflection of exactly the way me and my love need to work on solidifying .. Haha :) I may have never actually met Dax, but do share the same family line as him along with so many more Shepard's who I am sure still remain so unknown to me! My branch of the shepard family tree is pretty much non existent now for me due to death or this totally angry buy justifiable intolerance for them that now permanently resides within me. Sad, I know, but unfortunately true. I can't believe I managed to still develop into the emotionally stable/responsible/caring/loving/passionate/peaceful/well rounded and well not a nutcase with a case of the crazies! It is refreshing to constantly see a lot of similar attributes and commonality, personality speaking that is, with family that now fills up the nothing that was once a huge question mark surrounded by blank space - one of the main unsolved mystery type themes that haunt me in life.

Nothing.. I say nothing shall stand in my way of properly documenting and sharing about this moment of feeling in tune and some kind of genetically cosmic familiarity of the same kind and way of thinking and behaving and overall stressing of the importance of healthy communication in relationships, a kind that sustains and nourishes the happiness within as it grows and grows and grows larger full of love and a pair of positive spirits :) ... Nothing! Not the 20 bagillion million distractions taunting and testing my strength to focus completely on finishing this blog post of a novel so I can get back to my hunt to locate the site/blog
That i mentioned somewhere above in the probably overwhelming string of the unedited and raw cluttered words that I have used in great numbers in an attempt to represent the very profound and complex deep thoughts which occur to me to me. Holy ramblification, batman! Ugh, perhaps yet another FAIL by me really.


Here is one of
The keys that one would need to unlock a deeper level
Of understanding me and what I come from and how it relates to who i am as a person and who I have come to be... Still traveling down my path that hopefully leads to only love and brightness, relatively smooth and bumpless for me and my Mikey - the love of my life and true soul mate who I feel so lucky to have finally found and merged paths with. Life is good, and the smile on mu face is real and cinstantly fresh with the renewal true happiness.

Does any of what I wrote just now make sense or is it too jumbled and mashed together with no order or symmetry or.. Punctuation!! Haha sorry .... ADHD brain here. You wouldnt believe how quickly it thinks and shifts focus as I make connections between everything - exposing the thread which binds it all together in the huge great big giant scheme of things.
We shall see I suppose, when I re read this almost lyrical prose of mine tomorrow when it's not 2:04 am and I Should be sleeping instead of publishing my thoughts for all to see - in one long and ridiculous run on sentence brought to you personally and direct from my head and onto this blog by me.

Done. God dammit. Now I am done. Blahh..

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