A Day In The Life Of Leah's Brain and Her Attempt at trying to Illustrate Her "Life Soundtrack" of the day. It's Tuesday, in case you were wondering. BLEH!

Well, right now the current local time is 11:18 am.  The temperature is a balmy -8 degrees and the wind chill is approximately -30 degrees.  But, it is sunny! So, yeah.. there's that... Holy hell people of the midwest... are we experiencing a real life taste of what it might be like if the storyline of the movie "The Day After Tomorrow" actually played out for realsies? Cuz... -55 is pretty ridiculous.  I'm surprised my car started this morning.  It really did sound like it absolutely did NOT want to.. it made a sound that was wretched and painful.. as if it was saying "why! what are you doing to me you vile woman! stop it! right now! this instant! I doooon't waaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnaaaaaaaa.  Doooooooooon't maaaaaaaaaaaaake meeeeeeeeeeeee!!! .... Okay, fine.  Let's just do this shit.  You suck, by the way.  Thought you should be made aware of that."

(don't worry, i do not actually experience having literal conversations with my car.  This is just what I imagine it WOULD say to me if it COULD talk.. you know, like in the movie cars.  I really like inanimate objects that have eyes and mouths and faces and arms and legs when they totally shouldn't.  I think those kinds of things are fucking hilarious.)

this building makes my heart smile!! look at those eyes! Well done church architect dude who designed this.  I could do without the cross, but you know... I think I can forgive that simply because this is an awesome structure with a face.

this pickle is SUPER MAD! he's turning green... you don't want to see a pickle mad people... RARRGH! 

I have your back angry pickle face. If i were a cucumber, I wouldn't want to be pickled and jarred for who knows how long either :-/ *HUGS!*

now this guy.. this guy right here... this guy is probably up to something. and it's probably preeeeeeeeeetty mischievous! or dirty. one of the two.

welcome to my layer of DOOOOOOOOOM! i will devour your soul and keep it inside of my walls where your screams will be heard as faint echos for an eternity!! BWAHAHAHAHA. Also, we decide what becomes laws and shit here. Cuz, that makes sense.

and a nice little image to wrap up my little distraction of providing random ass pictures as examples of funny things that have faces that totally shouldn't, but they definitely do.

OKAY - back to my original reason for writing this... MY LIFE SOUNDTRACK! Here are the first additions for today's little playlist of awesome and weird and who knows what else.  Weird shit gets stuck in my head at totally random times! I don't know why.  

 "who knows where thoughts come from... they just appear."

Music That The Universe Has Decided To Be Today's "Life Soundtrack"

1. Saturday Night Duets - Peel Away

7:40 AM

(Local Milwaukee Band That Is Totally AWESOME in ways that I can not quite describe.  Check out their website: http://satniteduets.com/)

I AM SO IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG RIGHT NOW!!! FOR REALS!

Perfect that it was the first thing playing on the radio as I sat in my freezing ass car waiting for it to warm up slightly so that I could drive it without like, breaking it or something. :)

An excerpt from an article written and published on Milwaukee's own AV Club website (I liked the way this guy used his words and junk:

Irony gets a bad rap these days. In an age when soul-baring honesty is seen as the pinnacle of artistic achievement, coating one’s art in a “protective” shell of irony and snark seems defensive at best, and disingenuous at worst. But that obsession with frankness denies the notion that irony can be enjoyed for irony’s sake, and suggests that an audience may not be bright enough to chip through the layers of sarcasm to find the sincerity hidden inside. Over the course of two full-length albums and a handful of EPs, Milwaukee’s Sat. Nite Duetshave buried their tales of bygone summers and lovers lost under piles of empty PBR cans and dude-friendly jokes. That’s once again the case with the group’s terrific new album, Electric Manland, though an expanded musical palette and a renewed devotion to all things pop (and junk) culture ensure that it’s much more than a rehash of its predecessors.[http://www.avclub.com/milwaukee/articles/sat-nite-duets-electric-manland,83888/]

2. The Avett Brothers "Live and Let Die"

7:50 AM

Let Us Take A Moment To Absorb The Lyrics of this kick ass tune-age:

All it will take is 

just one moment and

you can say goodbye to 

how we had it planned

Fear like a habit, 

run like a rabbit out and away.

Through the screen door 

to the unknown.

And I want to love you and more.

I want to find you and more.

Where do you reside

When you hide? How can I find you?

'Cause I want to send you and more

I want to tempt you and more

can you tell that I am alive?

Let me prove it.

You and I, we're the same.

Live and die, we're the same.

Hear my voice, know my name,

you and I, we're the same.

Left like a pharaoh, 

sing like a sparrow anyway.

Even if there is no land or

love in sight.

We bloom like roses, 

leave like Moses out and away.

Through the bitter crowd 

to the daylight.

And I want to love you and more.

I want to find you and more.

Can you tell that I am alive?

Let me prove it to ya.

You and I, we're the same.

Live and die, we're the same.

You rejoice, I complain,

but you and I, we're the same.

Live and die, we're the same.

You and I, we're the same.

Hear my voice, know my name,

you and I, we're the same.

And I want to love you and more.

I want to find you and more.

Where do you reside

When you hide? How can I find you?

'Cause I want to send you and more

I want to tempt you and more.

Can you tell that I am alive?

Let me prove it.

You and I, we're the same.

Live and die, we're the same.

You rejoice, I complain,

but you and I, we're the same.

Live and die, we're the same.

You and I, we're the same.

Hear my voice, know my name,

you and I, you and I.

How great is that? Pretty great. If you don't think so, you probably don't have a soul inside of your skin and bone bag body.  That's right.  You must be a robot or an alien or something along those lines. Blah.

3. Cage The Elephant - "Come A Little Closer"

11:30 AM

I'm starting to get really bored with giving unnecessary information about each of these songs.  Despite that it is number 3 on my list here, I have not been researching the songs and the random things about them in any particular order. Of course. Why would I do that?? I'm pretty sure they are from Tennessee, but maybe not. Umm... blergity blergity blerger blergeroo. I just sneezed 5 times in a row and my glasses flew off of my face.  For real. That actually just happened.  No one was around to witness it though :( wah wah wah. SO ENDS ANOTHER TRUE LIFE DRAMA IN THE WORLD OF LEAH LAND!!! sob.

PENIS! 

 

4. Billy Joel  - "She's Got A Way"

11:44 AM

Yep, Random Facts Just For You:

• In a 1981 interview, Joel expressed mixed feelings about the song: " . . . I thought it was cornball for years. I had trouble singing it at first. Then I got into it and decided everybody has a corny side, I suppose"

Billy Joel plays all of these things - organ, harmonica, piano, harpsichord, keyboards, Hammond organ, vocals

Artie Ripp, owner of Family Productions and hence the owner of the original master tapes, was responsible for the production error, and the mistake cost him his friendship with Joel. He had originally signed the then-unknown 22-year old Joel to a 10-record contract that stripped Joel of all rights to the original tapes and to the publishing rights to all current and future songs. 

^^^WHAT A JACK ASS! Geez. Poor young Billy Joel [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cold_Spring_Harbor_(album)]

LYRICS AND JUNK:

She's got a way about her
I don't know what it is
But I know that I can't live without her
She's got a way of pleasin'
I don't know what it is
But there doesn't have to be a reason anyway 

She's got a smile that heals me
I don't know why it is
But I have to laugh when she reveals me
She's got a way of talkin'
I don't know why it is
But it lifts me up when we are walkin' anywhere

She comes to me when I'm feelin' down
Inspires me without a sound 
She touches me and I get turned around 

She's got a way of showin'
How I make her feel
And I find the strength to keep on goin'
She's got a light around her
And ev'rywhere she goes
A million dreams of love surround her ev'rywhere

She comes to me when I'm feelin' down
Inspires me without a sound
She touches me and I get turned around

She's got a smile that heals me
I don't know why it is
But I have to laugh when she reveals me
She's got a way about her
I don't know what it is
But I know that I can't live without her anyway

5. Tom Petty & The Heart Breakers - "Refugee"

11:46 AM

Interesting Facts That May or May Not Actually Be Interesting:

• In 1980, Alvin and the Chipmunks covered the song for their comeback albumChipmunk Punk.
• Released in January 1980 (today's songs seem to have a "released in January" sort of theme to it... eh? interesting...... (or not, you decide.)

6. Bachman-Turner Overdrive - "You Ain't Seen Nothing Yet"

11:47 AM

According to the prestigious Wikipedia: This song was Released in 1974.

"You Ain't Seen Nothin' Yet" was written by Randy Bachman. In The Rolling Stone Record Guide, writer Dave Marsh called the song "a direct steal from The Who," but "an imaginative one."

Bachman was embarrassed because he thought it was a stupid song, just something that he wrote as a joke.  

Well, the jokes on you Mr. Bachman.  Cuz this song kicks ass.  Sorry if you secretly hate it?

7. The Lumineers - "Ho Hey"

12:33 PM

According to Wikipedia:

"Ho Hey" is an indie folk song that is written in the key of C major. A McIntosh MC240 amplifier was used in the recording.

8. Boston - "More Than A Feeling"

12:36 PM

9.  Bash & Pop - "Loose Ends" (Minneapolis, MN)

12:37 PM

This song is circa 1993, and I think it is fabulous.  Although... in the time it was originally released, it did not fare well with the critics.  They thought it was "sloppily written" or something.  Pshh.  I think it's pretty cool.  So shut your face holes early 90's stupid face critics! 

10. OneRepublic - "Counting Stars"

12:38 PM

Released in June 2013 as part of their Third studio album Native.

Musically, it is a pop song with strong elements of folk music.

Wanna know about the filming of this music video?! Well, hold on to your hats folks! Leah knows how to google :)

The music video was filmed on May 10, 2013, in New Orleans, Louisiana, and premiered on May 31, 2013. The video features the band performing the song in a gloomy basement surrounded by hanging light bulbs – which is interspersed with scenes of several people in a Christian revival service. At the end of the video, one of the people in the service falls through the floor, coming through the ceiling of the room the band is performing in. The video also shows clips of an alligator crawling through the basement.^[6] The song was also cut a bit in the music video.

[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Counting_Stars_(song)]

11. La Luz - "All The Time"

12:39 PM

Apparently, these are the only lyrics in this song:

Baby of mine

Likes me all the time

He don't tell me 

(Little baby)

How I should be

Day or evening

(Little baby)

Hear him singing

Some more info:

Shana Cleveland, a multi-talented musician, artist, and writer from the Seattle area, is prolific across many mediums, and as a singer, songwriter, and guitarist, she's been an integral part of several rather diverse bands, including the Curious Mystery, which featured a Cowboy Junkies via dream pop kind of sound; Shana Cleveland & the Sandcastles, which spotlightedCleveland's velvet voice as a late-night crooner; and this band, La Luz, which finds Cleveland (lead guitar), along with Marian Li Pino (drums), Abbey Blackwell (bass), and Alice Sandahl (organ), exploring girl groups and surf music with a lo-fi retro-rockabilly edge. The band released an EP, Damp Face, in 2013, and followed it in the fall of that same year with a full-length,It's Alive.

[http://www.allmusic.com/artist/la-luz-mn0003080086/biography]

12. Cheap Trick - "I Want You To Want Me"

12:39 PM

Random Facts That You Never Knew You Always Wanted To Know About This Song:

It appears in the first episode of Scrubs right after JD met Elliot for the first time.

In episode 92 of Dawson's Creek when Joey Potter sings it at a night club.

That's all I've got for now. 

THE MORE YOU KNOW! (shooting star). 

13. Outkast - "Hey Ya"

12:43 PM

Random Facts To Feed Your Brain With:

•  It was listed at number 15 on Blender's 2005 list of "The 500 Greatest Songs Since You Were Born".
• The song's unusual arrangement drew comparisons to artists from a variety of genres.
• New York also likened it to The Beatles and found it to be one of the best singles of 2003
•  AllMusic described it as an "incandescent" mix of electro, funk, and soul music.
•  NME likened trying to classify the song as "akin to trying to lasso water" and described it as "a monumental barney between the Camberwick Green brass band, a cruise-ship cabaret act, a cartoon gospel choirand a sucker MC hiccuping 'Shake it like a polaroid pic-chaaaa!' backed up by the cast of an amateur production of The Wizard of Oz. (<-- fact="" favorite="" i="" my="" nbsp="" random="" span="" think..="">[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hey_Ya!]

14. Green Day - "When I Come Around"

12:45 PM

Ahh Green Day.  A band that truly did define a large chunk of my rebellious adolescent and teenage years of life... Ever wonder more about what's "behind the music" of the official video for this song? No? Too bad. I'm going to tell you anyway:

The music video shows the band walking to different places, like the Mission District and the Powell Street Station in San Franciscoand Berkeley, California at night, along with various scenes of people doing common things all inter-related. One of the first scenes of the video eventually leads back to the scene at the end. The band's friend and now secondary guitarist Jason White can be seen in the video with his girlfriend at the time. Mark Kohr directed this video.^[4]

Before the video was filmed, MTV aired a live performance of the song by the band at the 1994 Woodstock Festival.

MTV's Ultimate Albums: Dookie special credited the simple horizontally-striped sweater worn by Billie Joe in the video for starting a fashion trend of similar sweaters.

[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/When_I_Come_Around]

15. Green Day - "She"

12:48 PM

(It's like I'm an angry ass teenage girl all over again! This once was my official self-proclaimed "Anthem" for quite a while.  And in many ways... it still is.  Just listen to the words, man.  It's all about the lyrics!)

Some Random Ass Facts About This Song In Particular, mmmhmm:

• PopMatters listed "She" as the eighth best Green Day song, citing ""She" is sensitive without being soft; in between Armstrong's empathetic declarations of "Scream at me / Until my ears bleed / I’ll take [sic] heed / Just for you", the band is hammering away at its instruments with amped-up intensity."
• The name of the album is a reference to the band members often suffering from diarrhea, which they referred to as "liquid dookie", as a result of eating spoiled food whilst on tour. Initially the band were to name the album Liquid Dookie; however, this was deemed "too gross", and so they settled on the name Dookie. (GROSS)[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dookie]
• The album touched upon various experiences of the band members and included subjects like anxiety and panic attacks, masturbation, sexual orientation, boredom, mass murder, divorce, hobos and ex-girlfriends.[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dookie]

• The radio-only single, "She", was written by Armstrong about a former girlfriend who showed him a feminist poem with an identical title.^[6] In return, Armstrong wrote the lyrics of "She" and showed them to her.^[6] She later moved to Ecuador, prompting Armstrong to put "She" on the album. The same ex-girlfriend is the topic of the songs "Sassafras Roots" and "Chump". [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dookie]

... 8th best Green Day song... how very specific of you Wikipedia! Thank you for adding more semi-useless knowledge to my already overflowing warehouse of trivial knowledge that is located inside of my brain factory. It should also be noted that it is the 8th song on the album in which it is featured so majestically, Dookie.  Hmm.. I'm starting to question whether or not the folks from "Pop Matters" just made that whole "8th best green day song ever!" thing up for fun. Meh. It still is and always will be one of my all time faves and forever a fixture on my ULTIMATE LIFE SOUNDTRACK! (The definitive collection of ALL OF THE MUSICS that had some sort of profound impact on me at some point or points throughout my life as a person named Leah! Yeah!

Ahh... but the lyrics! THE LYRICS! It's as if Billy Joel Armstrong was singing this song for me personally beginning around the time when I was a mere 11 years old.. freshly abandoned by my mother, who decided to end her life in a horrific and traumatic way for my very young pre-teen self... Wow. I'm so fucking old. This song is 20 years old now. Holy shit. WTF. Le Sigh. 

BEHOLD! THE LYRICS!:

She....

She screams in silence.

A sullen roit penetrating through her mind.

Waiting for a sign to smash the silence with the brick of self control.

Are you locked up in a world that's been planned out for you?

Are you feeling like a social tool without a use?

Scream at me until my ears bleed.

I'm taking heed in just for you.

She...

She's figured out all her doubts were someone else's point of view.

Waking up this time to smash the silence with the brick of self control.

Are you locked up in a world that's been planned out for you?

Are you feeling like a social tool without a use?

Scream at me until my ears bleed.

I'm taking heed in just for you.

Are you locked up in a world that's been planned out for you?

Are you feeling like a social tool without a use?

Scream at me until my ears bleed.

I'm taking heed in just for you.

SOOOO uhh...  there you have it.  That's all of the music that randomly come on the radio while I was listening to the radio at different times throughout the day so far.. Interesting stuff right? WHAT DOES IT ALL MEAN!?!? IT MUST BE SYMBOLIC!!!! Perhaps I should spend the next 2 hours and 50 minutes that I have left sitting at work pretending to be working on actual work trying to create some sort of formulaic equation that will ultimately de-mystify not only the mysterious ways in which the radio sometimes KNOWS EXACTLY THE RIGHT SONG TO PLAY AT EXACTLY THE RIGHT TIME ALWAYS (either that or it's Linkin Park on every station.  You can't win em all I guess.) 

BUT! This formula would also open up new scientific knowledge about the universe itself and how the universe works and shit. Yeah. That's what I'll do instead of finding actual work to do. 

No I won't. I won't really do this. I AM SO BORED I FEEL AS IF I COULD SCREAM!! Kinda symbollic the last track of today's life soundtrack is SHE, ehhhhh!?!? EH??? 

Alright, this post is DONE. It needs to make like a tree and fucking LEAVE! Get out of here super long random ass kinda pointless blog post! Stop typing words you stupid fingers that are attached to my hands which are attached to my body that I am currently in using to type incessantly with.  YEAH.  

BYE.

(for now.)

I have no idea what to title this.

A little something I wrote a month ago that am anxiously sharing now.  When I wrote it I was inspired by Eminem a tad, so try to have a beat going in your head ... Lol. Eek. 

Sometimes I feel as if I'm actually invisible

As if maybe somehow I stumbled and tripped over my own self and now I am falling

I'm Falling and falling 

Into some kind of massive void 

A black hole in the universe 

That only I could trip into 

Because.. Yes I know, 

I'm so fucking clumsy 

This void is a vacuum and it's Pulling me further and further into what seems to be a never ending space of darkness that goes on for an eternity 

Where all matter that enters immediately becomes void

Of any ability to simply be visible 

To those that are around me 

Transforming my scribbly energy into something that is stuck in an endlessly frustrating and confusing  place much like Purgatory

I exist but I don't, 

Because when I speak no one hears me and when I am around 

No one can see me

I'm not dead 

I'm not Really alive either 

Instead I'm just stuck in a hopeless state of 

utter 

invisibility 

non-existence  

A bottomless eternity of pressure and the pain 

And exhaustion from being pulled in opposing directions for far too long to be able to maintain a sense and appearance of composure and strength

When really that strength has become a great weakness 

I am my own nemesis 

I will tear myself apart and dwell on only the negative things 

Because that's what everyone else seems to acknowledge about me, 

The times I make even the smallest of mistakes are treated as if I am failings

At life in general and basically just being a person of value with skills that are worth publicly appreciating in some way or some shape or some form of praise 

For all of the good things I do for others in my life or how I can't help but go above and beyond with the most important of things - 

Finding ways to Pay it forward daily 

Hoping that maybe someday karma will repay me amazingly 

I'm sorry I abandoned you blog, But I'm back. Hear me roar.

This didn't fit in the profile section.. pshh.. Character Limit Shmaracter shlimit. 

I keep saying that one day i'm going to write a book so.. i'm sick of just saying that and am now going to begin DOING it - starting out with this bloggy blog here, to test the waters and create a space where I can type out my thoughts and feelings and impressions and opinions and observations and philosophical theories and takes on life in general that flow in and out of my mind regularly but until now have remained undocumented.. i'm starting to think that perhaps i should start doing just that.  So I will.  And it will be uncensored and unfiltered and in the RAW - kinda like a transcript of whats going on in my head at any particular moment in time where I will put it down in words instead of just saying "i should really write that down" and then don't - or do, but then lose whatever it is i wrote it on. haha.  Keep in mind that everything that does end up on here is completely from the heart and written with great passion and compassion and honesty and just ... the me that I don't let many people see or am not given the chance to show - all layed out in a totally random and in no particular order kind of way, of course.  But maybe it'll be cool and people will want to read it and maybe some things will make an impact somehow somewhere - only time will tell i suppose. Tick Tock, Tick Tock.

I'm so passionate about writing but also intensely passionate when it comes to photography.  It invokes the poetry within  the very core of all that is me; and as a result, inspires me to document said poetic musings in my writing.  The following is a clear multi layered example of what I'm trying to explain, freestyle:

Photography and the art of documenting all that my eyes have managed to experience and find...effectively exposing each moment that inspires me...that somehow strikes me and compels me
to capture and create an image of historical proof some random existence -
some small piece truth (because the camera never lies...)
forever freezing all that I see and all that i find,  from the grotesque to the things that perplex...
the complex and the simple.. the tragic and the magical.. moments of celebration and of course,
all that is beautifully divine...
basically anything
that catches my eye...
blue like the sky
and always observing the
moments which exist
beside us and around us
chaotically colliding 
in this climactically sporadic crazy fucked up world..
i aim to discover what is and what i believe to be a world which thrives invisibly, differently...
worlds that are all around us,
perhaps there are many layers of existence beyond that which we know...
many realms that are unseen, i would like to find the ability to skip amongst these places and spaces in which i have affectionately named the "in-betweens"
of what we as a species  perceive and what we dream.
Connecting the two together in search of a greater meaning.  :)

RANDOMNESS OF THE DAY PART 1

I really love making charts. All kinds of charts.. Pie Charts... Bar Charts... Scatter Charts... Line Charts... Venn Diagram Charts.. FLOW CHARTS!.. INFOGRAPHICS!... If I had my way and the time and the energy and the attention span, I would have charts made for everything.. Just like Marshall in this clip from an episode of How I Met Your Mother.

Randomness of the day PART ONE has now concluded. Carry on with your day as normal. I'm not a crazy person, I swear. Charts are fun ways to visually represent complex things, DAMMIT! So all you chart haters out there .... SHUT YOUR FACE HOLES! You cray.

Leah Shepard Photography|Through The Looking Glass: Adventures in A Beautiful Field Of Wildflowers...

Leah Shepard Photography|Through The Looking Glass: Adventures in A Beautiful Field Of Wildflowers...

I did It! I made a photography blog post! Wow, I must just be on fire right now or something..! (Not literally - for anyone who may be wondering. )

Tell me what you think! Feedback is good for photographers and artists like myself :)

PEACE!!

candice ashment art: Acrylic on Tissue Paper (not achooo! paper) DIY wall art {tutorial}

candice ashment art: Acrylic on Tissue Paper (not achooo! paper) DIY wall art {tutorial}

Take me as I am.

So take me as I am

This may mean

You'll have to be a stronger man

Rest assured that

When I start to make you nervous

And I'm going to extremes

Tomorrow I will change

And today won't mean a thing

Sometimes music is the easiest way to express exactly how I am feeling without getting too wordy or rambly or argumentative or bitchy or frustrated at myself and others... There is a soundtrack that consistently plays in my head throughout the ups and downs and in betweens of my life.  It plays in the background of my brain, behind all of the millions of other thoughts and ideas and feelings and memories and worries and lists of shit I should do but I'm not -

Complete with an array of self deprecating thoughts that I tell myself in response to being so fucking frustrated that I never get shit done and how I really suck at life sometimes.. 

So this is how I feel right now - in simple terms - that doesnt involve me talking or arguing or whatever. 

If i suddenly lost the ability to talk, i wonder if you'd start to miss my ADHD filled ramblings in time.  Or would you just rejoice inside your head daily that the universe gifted you a wonderful blessing by somehow making me a Mute who is incapable of verbal expression - and in effect, unable to talk during shows.. When you are playing your game of the moment...basically All of the things that ultimately trump focusing on me and what I am trying to communicate 100% of the time.  

I understand I am ridiculous and that I can be frustrating and obnoxious as shit . I annoy the hell out of myself multiple times a day, everyday.  I understand.  But you can be the same way with some things too, you know.  Neither of is perfect, we don't have to argue about who is right and who is wrong about the most trivial fucking things ever! I keep trying to communicate this and it just isn't working.  I learn to deal with your annoying tendancies, and you do the same!! Simple. Deal with it. 

See bolded portion of lyrics at the beginning of this post is there to get the main idea/point of all of this. I am me, you want me? You have to have all of me. I'm not a submissive little girl who is willing to become someone she isn't as suppress who she is just because it would make it easier.  I shouldn't feel ashamed to be my complete self with you - all me faults and weaknesses along with all my endearing qualities and strengths.  I am fucking awesome god dammit.  Make me feel that way sometimes. 

 

http://youtu.be/_ivt_N2Zcts

I hate the world today

You're so good to me

I know but I can't change

Tried to tell you

But you look at me like maybe

I'm an angel underneath

Innocent and sweet

Yesterday I cried

Must have been relieved to see

The softer side

I can understand how you'd be so confused

I don't envy you

I'm a little bit of everything

All rolled into one

[Chorus:]

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover

I'm a child, I'm a mother

I'm a sinner, I'm a saint

I do not feel ashamed

I'm your hell, I'm your dream

I'm nothing in between

You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am

This may mean

You'll have to be a stronger man

Rest assured that

When I start to make you nervous

And I'm going to extremes

Tomorrow I will change

And today won't mean a thing

[Chorus]

Just when you think, you got me figured out

The season's already changing

I think it's cool, you do what you do

And don't try to save me

[Chorus]

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease

I'm a goddess on my knees

When you hurt, when you suffer

I'm your angel undercover

I've been numb, I'm revived

Can't say I'm not alive

You know I wouldn't want it any other way

http://youtu.be/_ivt_N2Zcts